@DCandThePhantoms

Mine started when I had a realization that my self-worth and identity were attached to what I did and I produced. If someone insulted what I thought, did, or created I would see it as an attack on myself. I saw this as the main reason for most of my suffering.  I began killing my ego and shortly after it caused a nervous breakdown. 

I became paranoid, depressed, I didn't know what was real anymore. Everything seemed false to me and a dream state. I didn't know who I was and if I was going insane. It was a very dark time. 

As time went by I had to work out past trauma, and accept certain realities that seemed like only I could see. When I explained it to others they just looked at me like I was insane. I didn't realize it was actually the beginning of enlightenment. 

I too like you have always been spiritual and am an old soul in a younger body. I have always felt a connection to nature and all human existence from the beginning of time to now. I feel like the universe speaks to me (not in words) but in motivation, attention, actions, and destiny. I feel separated from everyone else. Like I am different. I am alone but at the same time never alone. 

Enlightenment comes in layers or stages. It only happens when you are ready for the next step. It is out of our hands. One cannot be 100% enlightened as it is a process, a journey. The more you become enlightened the more distanced you become from everyone because you see the dream state they live in and you cannot go back. you cannot unsee what has been seen. 

You also become more empathetic and understanding of the workings of human behavior and psychology. Things appear to you that have always been present but you were never able to see them or understand their implications. I feel more like a guardian over life whereas before I felt like a tooth on a gear of life. 

I find I must stay silent to the things I know now. As no one would understand what I am trying to tell them. They are asleep and do not want to be awakened. This is a private journey. 

Thank you for sharing your experience.

@chelseahenry5990

Oh my goodness........finally someone put into words what I've normally feeling and couldn't explain. Jim Carey said depression = deep rest....your body and mind needing rest of the character you've been playing....

@MykianaRichards

Life gets better when you learn that you don’t have to be liked by people

@harryhagerman3763

It’s scary how you basically just described most of what I’ve been feeling, and I just randomly clicked on the recommended video

@robertmartinez2790

I experienced ego death with the help of hallucinogenic mushrooms, it was all fun and games until my consciousness detached itself from my physical self and in an instant I literally had no idea who I was, where I was, how I got there, and no perception of time. It instantly humbled me, it made me feel like I was the puppeteer of my own puppet (my body) without knowing what my next move was gonna be. made me realize this physical world we live in isn’t our main existence but almost like a level in a game where we are put into a world with physical limitations to reach our max spiritual potential in preparation for our next life outside of something physical. Ego death put me in check and I’ve been a changed person for the better ever since.

@Willow_moon364

I'm going through this at the moment and feel very lost and disconnected. A lot of previous friendships have ended. I feel like I'm just going crazy. When i am around people i feel like a robot having conversations, i can't imagine feeling like this for years 😂

@jabezmwaniki3148

I had my ego death when I did 5.5g of mushrooms 🍄. I felt like nothing and I was nothing. My existence did matter and I didn’t feel tethered to this world. I completely lost sense of self and my ego was  completely dissolved. I can’t lie, I felt at peace, a beautiful experience if you ask me💯❤️.

@mayo45671

Taking on personalities was my FAVORITE part prior to my awakening. I found it so much fun and exhilarating. I was motivated by becoming a person I decided I wanted to be 'BY CHOICE/ DECISION' now I feel like I'm just floating and being nothing and noone. No excitement. I have no ambitions. My family looks at me weird.

@SagrarioTarot

Explaining a spiritual awakening is very hard to do without sounding like you are on drugs 😅

@lisarae3373

I have been going through this for years  and finally come to the realization and understanding that trauma throughout childhood made me disconnect and dissociate as a way to protect my child self.....stuck  Struggling to reconnect with myself, I don't know who I am or why I'm here. I know I must do the healing work to get through this process but how to do this when I've spent since my early years trying to shut it down and out 😒 being triggered constantly everyday even though I keep myself in solitary confinement 24/7 as I'm too sensitive to energies around out there. 

Your video has resonated strongly with me, thank you for your time and energy in producing it and helping a 34 year old woman from the United Kingdom through a very uncomfortable healing journey 🙏 gratitude to you 💜

@lyndaphoenix_

It’s so comforting to hear exactly what you’re going through being put to word’s especially when you feel like no one would understand. I feel so much better just knowing what it is I’m going through thank you for sharing.

@BAESZMUSIC

Wow! I first experienced this back in 2023. I stopped doing everything. And I mean everything at all. It was so depressing and upsetting, but here I am today, in 2025, watching videos like these. The Universe crushed me down to my knees, took away most of the things “My Ego Self Wanted”, and right now, today, I feel so calm and peaceful with myself. This feeling is so beautiful I must say! Just let go of control & let God. What a feeling this is 🤩

@koga-420iga6

I’m going through this right now. My dark night of the soul  about 2 months ago and people all across the world are having these experiences right now.  Humanity is waking up to their true inner divine nature. That being said, I have no idea who I am or what I’m supposed to be doing in my life either.  It’s kind of disheartening that this happened at 42 years old, but I guess it’s never too late for a spiritual awakening, which for me started 3 years ago around Christmas.  Everything was total bliss at first and certain events in my life recently triggered my dark night of the soul.  Great video, by the way.

@K9possibledogtraining

I literally woke up one day last year and didn’t recognize myself, didn’t know who I was (not in an amnesia way but lost all sense of self), and everything felt unreal. I went into several weeks of panick attacks which i never had before, because I couldn’t grasp what was going on. I was so strongly engrained in my identity structure that it was a shock to my system because it came out of nowhere in such an intende way. I went into a deep depression and DNOS. It was extremely intense. It’s been almost a year since this started but I’m in a much calmer place now since I understand and can make sense of it. It’s always comforting to hear others describe these intense signs especially the “just a pair of eyes looking out and basically not identifiying as a human cause theres nothing attached”. You think you’re going insane until you find the resources that can explain and guide you. I’ve really enjoyed Mooji’s teachings as it very much helps resonating with this

@Noluxarch

I was at the state of ego death for a while. Note that I was extremely suicidal, trembling with guilt, shame, trauma, and a deep sense of hatred towards the world for what it did to me, but the results of patience, not ending myself, listening to God, I feel a sense of divinity within me that I could only describe as invincibility against evil forces, the ability to shift my carnal mindset to stop sinning only increases in levels as I noticed positive changes in life.

@nancyrupp5893

Yes, I went, and still feel as though, I am still going through the dark night of the soul. It is said to be for our own good, but it is a super difficult thing to deal with. It is quite a long process, years for me also. Even though I now have an understanding of things, it is and can still be very hard to grasp the feelings of it all. Self love is not an easy concept when you've been told to think of everyone else first and put your self last, this I now have realized came from a narcissistic parent. Unless we finally realize otherwise, we will always be under the control of others and their destructive ways on our mental health.

@rafindeed

So as a cynical, atheist and completely anti-esotericism person i just find out that ive been through an ego death. Your words finally explained what ive been feeling for the last 2-3 years. My sense of self is completely shattered and it’s been really hard to understand myself.

@gabidaariel

I'm going through it at the moment, and I must confess it has been pretty difficult to take anything seriously ever since I realized nothing is as real as I deemed it to be. Also, this feeling of being a pair of eyes observing a dreamlike phenomenon, always leaves me questioning: ok, now what?
Much love to all ❤❤❤

@YakibombROMhacking

Hi Rei,

This is eeriely similar and surreal to what I've experienced as a child. From "being alone", "being in a new environment", "the perception of self as if 'glass' was breaking", the way you described ego death... it all hits home. You could say you were describing me in childhood before your ego death, except I wasn't a straight "A" student; I did get great scores on tests, but not homework or classwork. Everything else is the same. And yes ego death is hard to describe, but you did it very well. You even gave it a name. And you clarified you didn't do drugs! (Essential in this day and age, haha.) I didn't do any either.

Before I get into the story of my ego death, I have some backstory. To summarize, I had been spiritually awakened, THEN a few weeks later experienced ego death/dark night of the soul.

Here goes my story telling:

I had experienced something akin to enlightenment that I couldn't easily explain, outside calling it "Perfection" as a kid. I was 13 years old. I was being home schooled after difficulties with turning in class work. At the time, I was working on myself rather than my school work. During that time, something kind of hit me: I didn't have to worry about any thoughts I was having. I decided... I was happy! And a burst of warmth came from my chest. I saw the brightest blue sky I had ever seen! And I believed I could remember everything I was by looking at the bright blue sky--What that was, I didn't know, yet I was grounded and fully present.

It was all very sudden, too. The best way I can describe it now is the following: It was normal life, except I felt 2 feet off the ground. My energy was clear; I was sensitive to energies as well and from that point knew how to differentiate ones that were mine and others' energies. I wasn't afraid of death. It was like "the wind was blowing through me"--I was the world. I "knew" everything, in a sense that nothing was restricted or hidden in my mind. I didn't live in my mind; I was experiencing through my soul. So deep, so deep... Isn't it all just?

A few weeks after this, I would be transferred to a new school completely, due to my classwork still being an issue. This would turn my world topsy turvy... I would forgot everything, as you described ego death. Even the brightest blue sky I had ever seen. I had told myself "I would never forgive myself [for leaving this state of being]" and this broke me for years. I was alone because I couldn't tell anyone what had happened (the above written); no one would understand because it isn't something you understand with the mind, and I knew that.

I could not tell, in those final moments before ego death, whether the universe was telling me I was going to be destroyed, or if I did it voluntarily. Regardless, I think I sort of just leaned into the death to forgot everything about myself. I let myself succumb to a new order of "depression," "disorder," and "disability," all of which I suffered from for the rest of my schooling years and most of my adult life. It led me on some dark roads, but I believe it's the universe telling me I'm on the right way.

Anyway that's my story. I had spent about 10~ years and counting living the dark night of the soul. I'm out of the thick of it. And life's good! Still difficult and uncomfortable sometimes, but hey that's life.

Best Wishes,
Jason

@sharon_rose724

The void of meaning and all personal "beliefs" going out the window.. is exactly where I am. Dark, empty, disconnected.. and this emptiness is much different than depression. I was in a blissful, happy life and after my awakening, it fell apart. It's been about three years now and I really don't knoa what direction it move in, especially with the delusion that's blanketing humanity right now.